Does it bother you
that we barely even talk?
Can things go back to
those winter morn walks?
I made out of myself-
this strange melancholic mess
Checking my notifications always
doesn’t make the agony any less
Bitter pills and misery
is what I chose
Seems like I am just down with
writing this prose
One lazy Monday
From somewhere out of the blues
My mobile pops up
With texts of you
I jumped and freaked and fell on my couch
when my head hurt the lamp ~ “ouch!”
But little did I sense the pain
with this hustle and frenzy all over again.
But suddenly, before I could reply,
scrutiny of the utter world passes by
Buzzing hard like a Bumble Bee
in my brains; I now clearly see!
Threw my phone away on that chair
realizing I was the one you came in despair
Do I lie low for a flash in the pan?
Nah, son. Grow up, be a man!
Found myself confounded
with thoughts of you that wounded
every little piece of my riven heart.
I wasn’t no emo she;
Never thought I’d ever be
driven by the curve of lips when you smiled.
Talking about adored movies
and favourite tv shows of yours.
Me, loved that spark like newbies;
fell hard for you, that’s for sure
Cool chic, with a crook in a hood
~ a pair beyond compare
Little did I know. I think I should
have known my worst nightmare.
They say when you fall
you rise higher!
Good Lord what did I miss
did I become a pire?
He clawed open the now-empty-body
and feasted upon all the feels
and chills he gave me;
I was still head over heels.
Broke a little realizing I made a mistake,
shouldn’t have kept my love for sale.
But now, even the thought of love
made me sick and pale
Sometimes I wish I wouldn’t have been one.
Feels so wrong, not saying what I feel.
Not being a critter of emotions.
Loving you was like admiring the North Star. But expressing it was harder than finding a tear in the ocean.
Something I’ve invariably been. The core of my spirit.
I wish I would’ve been good with words, not a shy skimp.
I wish I could tell you that you were the ultimate destination I had in my map.
Oh, how I wish you would’ve been here with me now.